Day Two 2:365

Today, January 2nd, is my mom's birthday. She would have been 66. 4 years ago she passed away from pancreatic cancer and not a day goes by that I don't miss her. I miss the things we used to do. The times we spent together. Her being here. I miss that she will not get to know her granddaughter who's named after her. I miss that she will miss so many things in life. I'm not sure if there is a word for missing something that never even happened to miss? I keep you alive with many stories and certain things I have kept and most importantly pictures of you and I. I love you so much and wish so badly that you are on your way home from vacation and you will be at home waiting for us to visit. Tomorrow we go to the beach in your honor, a place you wished to visit before you passed but were unable to see one last time. I love you, and like the ocean waves your love will always return to me.